why do i have that weied feel about you and HeR??

yesterday after the phone call. ,,, I sat on the floor outside my house on the grass. feeling the rain and coolness running through my body@ until my whole entire body was wet and my face is wash by my TEARs.....   ....jusT a period of time and need somewhere that i can hide!

I want to hide away from anything to do with U...phone call>e-mail>message>picture>  A N Y T H I N G % 

Shouldn't i be happy ?  Everyting  flow back  on me

i don't realise until...JUSt THAN.> petty stupid aR...

isn't it i am just too ***************************************

I really don't knoW what should i say to U.....U are++

U are special  as you are alway is ! --

WiSh U HappY .sO than I can Be HappY @@  

friends 4 forever right ...isn't that what you mean?  @

U can  only Lost something...  if you have had something ...

..So NOW..I don'T eveN havE A riGht to Say I LosT U...

caz I Have NeVer Have U in the past. **